Boozed up rambling!

[The Companyman]

How ya'll doing, currently it is 4:30 AM in southern Illinois ( Where I am born and done raised and currently residing ) and yeah, judging by the thread title. I am and have been drinking. Well, not am, I have been done for almost an hour now, and am comming down rather well I guess. Just that nagger of a headache.

The reason I am on the "Me drunked up and typing " soapbox is because I cannot sleep, as I do not sleep much no how, drunk, sober, or tired. It's an Army thing. Somehting I learned. Anyway, I needed something to do with my fingers and hands.

Why? Well, it is Feburary the 2 th. Nd. Yeah Groundhod Day, Puxatoni or whatever Phil. Well, that means jack and shit to me. 2/1 marks the 2 nd years anniversery of my old mans passing. And, it's not easy.

Being 35 I guess I was blessed to know my dad 33 years. Sure he was a hard assed old man. Born poor. Lived way down south and had to wear the same clothes for days and days in a row in school and got picked on. Had to eat boiled raddishes for supper time and time again. So he was tight with money, and every thing I ever had I had to earn and get for myself. He never abused me, physically. Just made me tough mentally. I his own old school ways. Sure I resented it for years growing up, but now I understand why.

I miss him and love him alot. I respect the man, always will.

Why am I typing and rambling? Well, I did what I could to honor him tonight. I went to the boat ( casino ) down in Metropolis, and broke even, got smashed drunk, fingered some girl I did'nt know ( sorry to offend the females and be that blunt ) and nearly got into a fight. But I did'nt, I walked away. Why? I don;t know. I could have used my pent up aggresion and did what needed done. But I was th ebtter man. Something my old man would'nt have done. Maybe nest time.

Maybe that is why I sit here and type like a madman, not caring if I slur speech or misspell words.

I have Bob Marley jammin' on my iPod. Legend. It mellows me. And this sort of rambastic typing fit calms me as well, keeps my hands handy into something soft and my thoughts pure.

I apologize for the length, and I am not looking for sympathy or merits. Its just something I need to do, better than walking the streets or worse, driving around drunk looking for a fight.

I am a grown ass man of 35 years and I have tears in my eyes, but that is OK. Because as Bob is saying right now. " Don;t worry about a thing... because every little thing is gonna be all-right "!

I work hard for my old man, he did for me and my mother and my brother growing up. I don't have a family. It is my choice. I guess it is because I fear what I would do, as in treat them like I was treated. Be tight with money and make them earn what they would get. Maybe I would'nt. Either way, it is a choice I live with. And I am cool with it.

My dad was in the NAvy, I joined the Army just to one up him. I think it disappointed him, but in a way it made him proud. I don;t mean to toot my own horn but I  served in the furst Desert Storm and Somolia in 1993, I was awarded a Bronze Star and a Purple Heart. 2 years ago I was the last of my family to lay eyes on my dad as the funeral director closed the casket, he asked me to come up and assist him. I layed my Bronze Star upon my dads chest. I think it made him more proud of what I had became in life, at least I hope it did. I had never felt that I did my dad justice until the day I came home from Nrth Africa, and he gave me a hug. I can still feel it, even now. It made me re gret the words I had said to him before I left, we had had a fight and I told him to take a good long last look because the next time he seen me it would be in a pine box. I know it hurt him, but it was one of them things said in a bad situation.

I don't know what else to say...

Thank you for letting me ramble, it does good at times.

Everyone here is great, good people. You all know how to make a newbie feel welcome. For that I owe you all.

[Neltharion]

I Think this Forum needs a Drunk rambiling Thread were we all can write down our drunk ramblings and be embarrased about later.

[Pandorag]

Here! Here!

I miss vodka... 

I usually need to ramble when drunk but I end up drinking more since there is no one to listen.

Gee, that brought tears in my eyes...

Be proud Company man, you're a good man too.

[pcth]

I Think this Forum needs a Drunk rambiling Thread were we all can write down our drunk ramblings and be embarrased about later.

Good idea!

Though, there is nothing embarassing in The Companyman's drunken post IMO.

Have a nice hang over, man!

[beckmen]

I Think this Forum needs a Drunk rambiling Thread were we all can write down our drunk ramblings and be embarrased about later.

Kind of what the spam thread is for...at least for me. But having a thread for that express purpose is fine with me.

Not drunk, but tired now. Oh, my friend is messaging me...gotta stay up more to shoot a short film. Looks like I might be pulling some insanity, but that's alright.

UPDATE!!!

You know what? No! I am going to have some drunken ramblings...

You talented and attractive people out there...you fucking owe me. You wouldn't exist if it wasn't for me. The universe needs somewhere to drop it's sludge when it makes you fuckers, so cosmic balance can be maintained. So don't forget me...and the other people like me, who don't add up to shit. We suffer for you, and not even by choice. I am speaking out for all the untalented, unattractive, and under-doggiest people out there! We deserve some recognition!

[drake]

I planned this thread for sometime but never got down to it ! 

[The Companyman]

Thanks GENTS! Ya'll some good men.

I am good toi go now... feel much better! Living life well!

Let us rock, sorry to miss the LIVE ACTION CHAT! I took mom and my brother and his girlfriend and kids out to dinner. JUST like dad would have.

All in all, thanks guys.

[fitzley]

We had some problems with the chat feature, so we postponed the live chat...so you'll get a chance next weekend to join us!

BTW, glad to have you on the forum.

[The Companyman]

Thanks fitzy, bummer. I look forward to it.

[Pandorag]

Thanks GENTS! Ya'll some good men.

Hey, when I look down I see 2 proofs i'm not a gent... 

I hope you had a great time with your family.

[The Companyman]

Resisting urge to make swanky comment!

Resist...failing!

Anyway.. and ladies!

And thanks, I did.

[Pandorag]

Dang! You're too good... I never let an opening like this pass my way without swinging, but like you, I don't know the lot of you too well, so I better not risk it. 

If it feels right, go for it! 

[The Companyman]

< blushes and giggles like a school girl >

ME LIKE GURL! UG!

[Jaz]

I dub thee....Sir Jaz the II.

Man after my own heart

Peach of a ramble if ever i've heard one, my man.I used to be good at them but over time they all end up "wakjlhtlkjgshlkjasghlkjhsdalkjthdskltjhq" <- thats me smashing my face off the keyboard. Little trick i picked up somewhere along my drunkenness.

Sadly i work 6 and 7 day weeks now so i can only ever ramble when i "pull a sicky".

The one thing i will ramble oan about is, WOMEN!

Why do they have this fuckin power over men. The power of making you fall in love with them, with there coy little ways. The way the look, smell, act and fuck. After all is said and done you cant pry them from your fuckin brain, your conscience, your emotions, your brain, your very soul!

They say its unintentional but im of the mind that there is a secret society, a sect of the women that live and practice the art of holding men folk by the very bollocks that they hold dear. Love is a word to many a man. Love is the secret weapon of all women folk everywhere.

A wise man once said " Women are like spiders...spinning there webs of lies and deceit"

I salute that man!!

[Pandorag]

Please don't giggle like a school girl...omg here it comes... i can't help it....must.. not.. say ....

   k, i'm good now...